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One More Time
03:20
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One more time
And there’s chaos in my mind
Every morning, wondering where things went wrong last night
One more time
I’ll find the broken lines
That will eventually lead me home
One more time
And, my baby’s feeling fine
Though I am oblivious to every single sign
She breathes the air
Breathes out her will to care
And she thinks I’ll understand next time
Waking up with a timer in my throat
Coughing up the seconds I forgot I’d swallowed whole
I spit them out, in my panic, I will shout
That I can take this one more time
Waking up dead outside of my bed
When everything’s closed on a Saturday night
Calling my friend to make sure she’s okay
When there’s nothing to do in this town but bite
My lip so hard that I start to bleed
Til my memories come back to life
But one more time, I think it’s going fine
I can handle this just one more time
Sitting by my mountain made of glass
I can see a hundred miles from this overpass
I’ve seen this all ninety nine times before
But I know this time will be the last
I will control if there’s one more time
And that decision will be mine
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2. |
Tempted
03:54
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I spent all my cash
So I bolted fast
I fled the scene
Stained forest green
Drove seventeen
Straight hours north and
I looked through the glass
To my rearview past
Moving away
on full display
Rejoice and pay
Nostalgia today, cause
All the devil really wants from you
Is to admit you’ve been tempted too
Changed out of my shirt
Cross from the catholic church
I went right in
My body’s sin
Was cloaked within
And nailed to my skin
with my
Hands numb, I took a bite
Stumbling toward the light
I was walking slow
Dying to know
Where they all go
When their light goes away, cause
All the calls I’m getting on my phone
Are thieves dressed up in my family’s clothes
Even when the sky falls down
You know I’ll have your back
Even when the ground’s unearthed
I’ll get you back on track
I went through the trash
Rabidly for last week’s
Magazine
That I’ve never even seen
But I can touch my screen
Then my trashed self-esteem will
Turn me a little bit pale
Like the man that’s nailed
And suffering
Like a phone that’s buffering to show me
Some obscene
Self reflection then of me, well
My eyes are dripping into my hand
Pixelated, but I start to understand
Even when the sky falls down
You know I’ll have your back
Even when the ground’s unearthed
I’ll get you back on track
Even when the ocean’s dried
I’ll rehydrate your eyes
And even when the last minute’s here
I’ll buy you some more time
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3. |
Blood Moon
03:13
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Bloody red moon
I offer up my sacrifice
Take all of my skin
And breathe it in, sweating out cold, pure light
Condense yourself down into a square
Frozen everywhere, but
I feel a fire within my saliva ignite
Heavenly moon
Tell me what Eden sounded like
Swell reality’s tides, eclipsing my eyes
Increasing my pupils’ size
I don’t feel afraid, but almost dismayed
For the air is crystalized
But I’ll find a crack and climb up into space to see you
I walk through gates of twisted sorrow
That decide what kind of light I will disperse into reality
My love, I’ve annihilated falsities,
brought forward by the dark when you’re not here
I have been silent for a couple of days
My tongue’s been frozen a couple of ways
Now I’d be able to see again
But the moon has risen to high
Under my bloody red skies
Crystal clear moon
Will you murder me in my sleep
Will your scattered clouds
Carry me high to your lonesome keep
There, I’ll see your eyes
Like moons that don’t rise
The fire you reflect will feel warm
But after a while, the light of your smile will leave
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4. |
Ceiling
03:37
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I took it too far last night
Now today, I think I’m gonna die
So I’ll lay down right here
Watching the ceiling spinning by
Well I know that good things fall apart
As quick as they can form
And I noticed when there was something wrong
When did you get back last night?
I did not hear you walk through the door
When you talk to me now
you don’t look into my eyes no more
Oh, what happened?
You were my best friend, now I’m the enemy
And I want nothing more than to
Come back to how it used to be
The only way I can sink in my bed
Is drowning the room til it’s half the way dead
Seeing the liquid inside of the ceiling
Come down
I rarely used to dream
Now you’re gone and I dream every night
It is always the same
You are glued to the ceiling light
But I don’t dream when I can fall asleep
With the liquid in my skin
So I’m floating along now every night
Til the ceiling spins
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5. |
Flies And Birds
03:29
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Flies all around me making patterns in the sky
All of their instincts tell them to circle me because my
Eyes are shot blood red, three-quarters closed
But shine like glass that’s been disposed
I want to walk away before they comes and lay their eggs
But I can’t get the feeling back into my legs
“You’re stressing out,” you said before you sat back down
“You’re rocking back and forth and your eyes keep darting all around,”
That’s when the sound of your voice carried me
Beyond this buzzing misery
To city streets all soaking wet from rain
Dripping out the memories from inside my brain
Will you call me
When I move away from here
Will you talk me down
When I am freaking out cause I can’t hear
When I can’t get the feeling back into my ears
As I relax, I notice cardinals and robins
Closing my eyes, I hear their vocalization
I hear them sing in the most brilliant light
I stay until day turns to night
Feeling so at peace that I could die
But just until the feeling comes back into my mind
Will you call me
When I finally disappear
Will you wonder where
I have gone, and when I’ll come back here
When I lose the feeling in my lungs
When I have the strength to fill them up
And when I regain feeling inside of my ears
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6. |
Ocean
02:40
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Something lives inside the ocean
Something there with no emotion
There with no one
That’s all that it wants
Worried I was overheating
I stepped into the retreating
Waves, in a spray
They pulled me away
Into the world that no people know
They spoke to me there, they tore off my clothes
And I felt good
I don’t ever want to breathe the
Air again, so you won’t see me
This is my farewell, goodbye
I know I might have to hurt you
So instead I will desert you
For my waves
That pull me asid
Far underneath the air that you breathe
My kingdom waits there, my people are scares
You could come with me, you would never see
Your family again, or any of your friends
But you’ll feel good
What now lives inside the ocean
Something with a pure devotion
Aren’t you glad you left all you had
Now we can be nice and silent
For eternity cause time means nothing
It’s nothing now
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7. |
Kingdom
04:01
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I was running down the hall
Balance kept holding the wall
Just to try to find my way out of this place
Indecision, I am here
Holding someone else’s beer
Getting tired, sitting down onto the floor
Nothing else to do but stand
My kingdom fading in my hand
Bloody nose that flows right onto my phone screen
There’s no exit in sight
I’ll be with the dogs tonight
I’ll be screaming at the moon and counting headlights
That are driving past this sorry cast
of dizzy stars until the last
hour of the night, it strikes like it’s lightning
Til my baby said to me
I can feel pulsating shocks
Dripping down into my socks
In my body is a broken strobe light, free from being told
When it can be turned on
But by the morning, it will be gone
So I should disappear, yeah I should flee
But my baby said to me
Don’t you go home
Stay here with me
I know you’ve been drinking all night long
Don’t you go home
Something's moving on the floor
Acid skies starting to pour
And I cannot get my screen to turn back on
Staring emerald in the street
Here the good and bad witch meet
And the kingdom's changing order with the day
It’s just the only time I’ve lost my mind
Was when I thought that world was mine
So now I’m breaking every screen I see
Til my baby says to me
Don’t you go home
Stay here with me
I know you’ve been drinking all night long
Don’t you go home
I’m looking up to see the morning light
Then down to see the dogs run inside
And I wonder which direction I will leave
But my baby said to me
Don’t you go home
Stay here with me
I know you’ve been thinking of ending things
Don’t you go home
I know you are burning out on this place
Stay here with me
You know I will always be on your side even if you leave
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8. |
Santa Fe
03:56
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Screen turn on
Screen turn on
Mourning doves and flying bugs
They dance around my dying buzz
Till my screen turns on
Screen, stay on
Focus on
Low horizon lines stretch wide
And canyon walls lay side to side
But my screen’s still on
Memories repeating on a constant loop all day
Leave my eyes as numb and dry as this Best Western ashtray
I remember this room. This consecrated tomb, floating away
Will you still remember me when I get back from Santa Fe?
Screen, please be gone
Screen makes me feel wrong
The string holding the world unties
Creating these painted desert skies
Til my screen turns on
I lift my coat to shield this paper bag all soaked in rain
Enclosed, the blood of antichrist is coursing through my veins
Unbroken bread and rotten fruit leave this bleached out bedding stained
Across the dark motel room, doves and shadows spell your name
My banished hands and knees are marked with rug-burn, marked with shame
Because I thought my holy promised land would still remain
But my entire kingdom's laying trampled in the rain, in the rain
As I start my car at dawn, and drive north through the western plains
I wonder with my remaining thoughts whether you have moved away
And, will you remember me when I get back from Santa Fe?
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9. |
Decide
04:04
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My love, I have seen this place before
It’s cloudy in my memory, but we’ve been here I’m sure
My love, I am floating down this stream
When I fall in, I’ll wake up from this dream
My love, morning comes, I’ll steal away
Walk slowly down the dark staircase into this dusty day
My love, when you wake I will be gone
My conscience will be baptized with the dawn
I don’t know what I’m doing
I am moving on pure instinct
I don’t know what I’m doing
If I slow down then I’ll start to think
In the fork of this river, reality and my hopes collide
I am looking at all of my options, and now I just need to decide
My love, I can hear the dogs for miles
They chase down the stairway where I’m cornered and they smile
They say to me, “If you’d stop running, you’d see
We’re only here because you let us eat”
One last time, then I’m taking control of my own mind
And from now on, I’ll let the dogs run free
I don’t know what I’m doing
I am moving on pure instinct
I don’t know what I’m doing
If I slow down then I’ll start to think
In the fork of this river, reality and my hopes collide
I am looking at all of my options, and now I just need to decide
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10. |
Everything Is Good
03:53
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My maturity had never been as apparent as that night
Like a dying planet that keeps pumping atmosphere, despite
Nothing needs it need since everything got good
When I snapped out of the state, the light inside your eyes made up
For every darkness or vacancy that mine seemed to be full of
Since everything is good
Everything is good
The ghost of our success is haunting what our world had used to be
We had flowered bitter fruit, but ate, pretending it was sweet
That everything was good
Everything was good
Time can be a virus that decays the healthiest of things
Even when you breathed me, its oxygen there felt thinning
But everything was good, everything is good
In the shallows of my heart, the only thing that lets me start
To see myself in airs of love is seeing I am not above
Thinking everything is good, when we’re not sure what is good
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Jason McCue Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
Jason is an alternative folk musician
“He had filled up the entirety of the Sky Church with a
banquet of characters and emotions and, I believe, the soft buzz that emanates from a group of people trying to hold onto a moment.” - Seattle Weekly
His intricate finger-picking and soaring hypnotizing vocals were undeniable, reverberating throughout the hushed room.” - KEXP Blog
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